lyn : )

17th birthday

2007-07-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
thanks to those who make the effort to wish me & celebrate my day with me
really appreciate those lil things in my life =)

i must thank my dearest sista jonathan for texting me at 11:59:37
which is 23 seconds earlier lols
& to think he sacrifice his sleep okie!

( i sound sacasatic but i'm not )

& i was surprised at that celebration at mac
thank you michelle, eileen, yee leng, theodore & najib =)

and this shall be the last post of this blog sadly
but all good things come to an end right
so there shall b an end to this=)

leave ur email if u r a frequent reader
cause it's a so-called personal blog?? =)

last few days.

2007-07-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

bOO! i'm back to blog.
let's see what had happened for the past few days.

okay, i went for SHS (school of health sciences) for the open house to showcase about Nursing. so it's like we get to tell those who are taking their O level this year more about nursing. Told them about the criteria to enter nursing, what we learn, what we r experiencing as a student, showed them our labs, our stimulated dummy. wells, no doubt, they r surprised when they saw those dummy. =) and they r like super shock when they know we have ~~dead~~ bodies here?? lols. seriously speaking, i think nursing is cool. it must be cause of the good people i'm knowing here.

too bad diana was busy & couldn't come. it'd be like damn cool la. coming to see those labs. if i knew it's so going to be like this, i guessed my JAE will be 1st choice nursing. i didn't regret choosing nursing 'tho it's like damn difficult to study for the biology. nursing IS cool! hahas! join join join~

then, ytd miss that said that we can get to learn about MEDICINE in year 2.. haha!!! i love that i guess. then whenever i go doctor then i'll know what is inside (which is just in case they want to kill me la) =P

then just now went to sentosa with my classmates, namely eileen, yeeleng and michelle. it's like i got burnt cause i think forgot to put the tanning lotion on my back! omg. its like super red now. congrats to me then.=x

i wanna learn swimming cause swimming is cool=) and i shall not drown myself to death which could be one of the ways where i choose to ~~commit suicide~~. sometimes i just feel that i shouldn't have existed here. & i think i lost jie's tanning lotion as it seemed to have disappeared. shit man.

somehow the past few beach going experience had never been great. i guessed that's the reason for today's mood there. there's too much things that had been in my mind. it's just so not easy to let go of certain things that have happen for the past 2oo6.

many things failed in 2oo6. had the first r/s which failed, the first quarrels btw mum & dad, getting the flu bug that stayed on for months, had to face with the long hours of class, stress of the examinations, getting tests like every day, had a major quarrel with my classmate,... i almost lost everything i had that year.. the times when i teared were like countless. each night seems like a torture.

but still, i was thankful for being able to withstand all those shits in life... i supposed they r just part and parcel of life which we had to gone through them. at least, i still had wonderful people who still keep me going.

but to lose something will mean we get to gain something. & that's right. cause i got my first job in 2oo6, had great frens, wonderful teachers who taught & guide me, managed to cope stress & graduate too.

"狂风暴雨之后, 晴天终会来临" (translated: after a heavy thunderstorm, there'll definitely be a fine day after that.) i believe in this.

to stay positive and be happy seems like something which i had to go each day. after all, not matter how happy or sad we r feeling, we still got to live on our lives. that is if we didn't kill ourselves. sometimes i feel sick & tired of pretending.

~~probably need the nourishment of love? lols. craps.~~

skipped class, go for jab

2007-07-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

Today is such a waste time for me. Went for 2 hours of lecture, which i fell asleep halfway as the lecture taught was about primary health care which i find it no use to listen as i've been taught in secondary =)

went for jab and yea, im not dead yet. cause the nurse was a super nice one(: jab not pain some more. so good.

im looking fwd to ATTACHMENT. heh =)

randomed

2007-07-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

Today I'm like a crazy person cause Theodore, Syed and I attempted to learn Tamil. & no, u didn't see anything wrong. i think i nearly went mad cause it's like super not easy to pronounce them. Cause Zubaidah was using alphabets to type them & so i used the english style of pronouncing them. Some were right 'tho. hahas!

we even had fun teaching our lecturer abt the phrase 'the big rat wants to shit'. damn funny today.

im so going to skip tmr's lecture to go tamp polyclinic for my jab cause i wont be free anymore. better get my jab soon.

training was great but im really throughly stretched today. hahas.

i think im blessed with wonderful frens=) thank God for letting me have them in the part of my life. & to minmin, i'll be fine. YOU are one nice person that make my day! =)) & jon you are too! i love u sis

)):

2007-07-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

lyn feels sad.
lyn feels un-loved.
lyn wants to cry.

lyn wants to help
lyn is a nurse to be, a wonderful one

so tell lyn your problems
she might not help
but she will listen
she will give advice
she will try to put herself in your shoes.

if u don't tell her she wont know
what you are thinking;
or going through;
or feeling now.
so talk to her.

-don't leave her hanging-

sad, skipped lecture, i miss SK!

2007-07-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

lyn is.. feeling sick... sad... angry... on the verge to giving up... feeling empty.. emotionless.

life has been shit
this few days are like a killer?
i have this huge ball of fire that is within me
which might explode anytime

things hasn't been fine for me
project, tests are never ending
& that leads to stress.

practical test is another shit
i still feel damn sad over it though 3 hours have passed
it wasn't a difficult paper
but i freaked out there

i was nervous. my hand shivered in that cold room i stammered.
i cant speak in proper English.

all these rubbish that is happening recently
is accumulating in me
somehow i wish to ~~cry~~
to release those pain.

i wanna talk about it to one person
but that person doesn't seem to be bothered.
i really miss that person.

-i dun want to lead a lonely life-

side track what has happen before pract test.
found out one of our lecturer is erm the v-president of SU of the first batch??
& he was in stage arts & in SHS club??
cant believe it. hhas.
& now i'm in SHS club too

Najib & i were crazy =x
cause we dun want to get bored during NYP's open house
so it's like we took 2 shifts
cause initially we just had to take 1 shift & leave
so we took 2 to do the openhouse together
it's so goanna be fun:P

skipped lecture today
went to mac to supposedly study & sleep
but in the end never sleep
studied with moomoo & she plaited my fringe
thanks moomoo! cause it's very nice(:
had sundae too! it was nice

going to gym this sat with darling anisa
& yes, i'm so going to SLIM down
& we're going to airport to study after that
that's cool man

& to my 5 friends, when are we going ICE SKATE
i dun know whether i can skate
but i'm sure we r so going to have fun
& i;m looking fwd to going there
'tho it's at jurong which is super far
but wells, it's going to be fun(:

LY, MP, skills tmr):

2007-07-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

This feels like SHIT.

YOU aint forced to listen to me
or care what ever i'm doing
YOU can mind YOUR own business, thankyou!

& no, you didnt get me wrong
I'm THAT sensitive

From YOUR words
i take it that i'm in a wrong
so next time, dun ask any help from me

* * *

two things pissed off me today
one was the one previously mentioned
& the other was that i cant stand it when SOMEONE refuses to contribute ideas
it was supposed to be GROUP work isn't it?

the definition of GROUP means to work TOGETHER
not to be sitting ALONE by the side, REFUSING to contribute

* * *

having skills practical tomorrow.
it's nothing much actually
but i dun know why i'm so afraid
is it because of the lecturer or was it insufficient practices??

so random!

2007-07-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

nice photo done by yee leng! (:

my lappie has been recovered! thanks to my sista for helping me to do.

transformer is nice(:

pract test is coming up soon! wish me luck then(:

sick of going sch! buy uniform..

2007-07-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

ive been feeling super tired each day i go to sch and when i go home too. it doesn't seem like a good sign to me. and sleeping on the bus is still not enough for me! i even slept in lectures (which is very wrong) ))))): it's not easy trying not to sleep in there especially taking more than an hour of bus rides each day. oh no, this sounds like an excuse!

we went to try our uniforms today. i think the tailor sucks cause they r like in a rush. but in the end we didn't bother about anything and we just keep on trying.i was a bit retarded cause i kept asking my group whether my dress was long enough or not. troublesome right. because there isn't any mirror or reflective areas for me to see. there was this lecturer who was very nice.. came into the room to help us.. how nice.

(oh and the main point is that we skipped 2hours of lecture to try & queue for the uniform. how interesting)

after the supposedly lecture, my ica group members and i went to ELP to do our project. it was the craziest meeting i ever had cause we got ultra high in the middle of discussion and we starting taking lots of photos. & i looked super bimotic in them la! thanks zubaida for helping us! & advance thanks if we will to go ur house :)

however this meeting do make me reflect pretty much. somehow happiness is always short lifted. cause i know in the next 2 years we will never get back into the same grouping. it is definitely sad to leave this group. but somehow many ppl in other groups have problems with each other.. i wonder what is the big problem.

yesterday training was great:)

my lappie is crushing down on me. only after at least of 8 restarting and rebooting n rebooting again, i can finally backup all my files now. goanna let najib do the honorable job or reformatting my lappie:)

boring life):

2007-07-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

Life been bored recently. Haven been going down to parkway to find darling samantha & ming kiat & to fulfill my promise: to eat break with ah boy. Haven been meeting chinhui for a long time much least to say for miss indian,ah chua and reaching to be black soon de tan simin! also very long never see jon already. & how i miss those days of sec life, teasing mr lai, emperor shahril, mdm ho,... too much memories to forget. I must find time for all these gatherings!

skills practical is so not going to be easy with my lecturer cause she's strict and pin high hopes on students. I'm not sure whether i can get a good score, but i'm definitely willing to try. Not giving up hope so soon! I'm going to re-study my whole book again. TPR, bp and NG feeding is a must to practice nowadays. Congrats to anisa for ending her suffering today. 7 more days to the end of a suffering!

I'm seriously looking fwd to clinical attachment. I hope the day comes soon and i get fruitful experience at the end of the three weeks :)

skills theory test, elective test results, clinical posting

2007-07-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

skills theory = disaster
reasoning: half of the paper i couldn't understand the medical terms. how wonderful. it was distracting when people keep walking in and out. & moo moo's phone keep beeping!! and i realised something.. LT-J is scary cause it looks as though u are going to fall when u are not. cause i got a fear of heights & that's damn scary for me la!

got back electives test paper, got a B+. Now i hated getting Bs. Cause there aint room for improvement! awwwww ): I must get A!!

went crazy before class for electives started. cause we started jumping around & it was like damn funny la! took lots of photos ((: it's always fun with them around man (:

got our clinical postings, got into a hospital which i didn't really wanted to go): but was the same as anisa, najib, siti, peiming and shakila. wonder ppl frm grp 13 are nice ppl not... HMMM...

不知道你在想什么，做什么。。但那一些小小的事，却奇迹般的让我感兴趣。因为你的存在，所以我看到了另一片天空。

shopping day. day b4 GST hike.

2007-06-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

I went out with mum & dad to best to collect some stuffs.(i'm like a light bulb la. lols) then I was amazed by the huge number of crowd. The reason being.. TMR is the GST hike. So, seeing huge crowds is common cause I'm living in Singapore. Everyone was choosing things here & there and those cashier counters queues were like damn long la. Initially mum wanted to buy some stuffs cause there were some promo. But after seeing the queue, we just left our things and left the stores. And I saw fanye & lechiben at metro while i was shopping! and i saw anisa when i was heading down the escalator ((:

After that, we went to bi feng tang to have our dinner. It was erm, like so-so la. But we waited for damn long la. Then met up with my sister, so my sister and I went shopping. Bought Listerine & 2 freaking big tissue papers cause my dog keep using them la. TSK! and there goes my $14.50.

It was such a tiring day): & i realised i have yet to study for my skills theory.. oh shit):

haiz.. tired of this life.. sk?

2007-06-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

我真的很累了。就算作出生命的改变，却从来没有看到什么改变。　不管做出再大的改变，事情还不是这样。有时真的很想独自的停留在自己的世界里，仔细的想下一步该做什么。在思考的时间过了以后，再打算我应该做什么。那些快乐的时光似乎早已消失了。　悲伤就好像是我以前的快乐。

我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的的融化，还不是这样

而你偷走我的时间，曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗

我不想孤单的走在回忆里撑强

只想这样吹着风　慢慢的把你遗忘。

phoned simin up in the morning to say good morning. oh wells, i miss my darling girl!

mayb with more initiative, things might have been a little better

because when i grew sick of trying

i might give you up

didnt u realise that our subject of talks seemed to have disappeared?

i dun not know what's wrong

i'm afraid of finding out

& i fear of losing you-

btw, wishing fanye a sweet 18=)
the official age to..
1. club
2. smoke
3. buy 4D
4. drive
5. watch m18
lols-.-!

MUM

2007-06-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Papa, thanks for giving me such a supportive mum. She really brights up my day with what she had said. I shall be a good nurse! (: i wan to go overseas for higher edu if can..... but mum doesnt wants cause it's expensive):

budget meals

2007-06-28T14:29:00.000+08:00

I'm in lecture class & yet I'm updating my blog. lol.
well well.
ytd's super budget meal with mich = fail
cause i eat like $5??
but today meal is better cause i onli had 1 chicken rice & 1 lemon tea
cost of today= $2.80
I'm so proud of myself (:

lessons are going to be ultra boring this sem
i seemed to b losing the momentum of studying

but one thing i'm sure.
I wouldnt be playing the sims at night
cause i wanna spend those times doing project & study
((:

super depressed!

2007-06-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't be breaking down if I could.
I'd be hanging there till the last beat I'm having

& Papa, I'm waiting for your answer..

never meet wendi, met ryan on the way,

2007-06-25T16:31:00.000+08:00

I seriously think i went to school for nothing
other than helping my frens to do their assignment & to submit my assignment
I wouldnt come sch if not for the assignment

I saw people who couldnt make it to the time
And all they could do was to let the lecturer walked past them?
now then i understood the meaning of punctuality.

& the point is that i came to school supposedly to study
and what ended was that i did their assignment for them.
how cool
shldnt have brought my psycho book

didnt manage to meet up my darling girl today
awww):
but i shall go find her someday when i'm free (:

no matter what others might think or say about you
but our jie mei relationship wont change de right?
wish u luck with that guy! love ya!!

on the way back home happen to see Ryan
& we took 72 back to Tampines.
i think he's a nice person(:

& i spent 11 bucks on grocery??
cause i went to shop n save
decided to buy nutrisoy for mum & me ((:
then i bought some canned food & snapple

after that went to buy lunch for mum & me
cant believe i'm so nice? lols.

my timetable for school sucks!
every tue ends class at 6pm):
and every alternate fri i get 5hours of break after a 2 hour lecture
WOW):
probably i date ppl out on tue & fri for dinner?? ((:

sch tmr):

2007-06-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

e3s, see this link for the class bbq photos..
& i still need pics from pok quen & farhah to complete them

sch is starting tmr)):
will be going for just one hour of lesson
cool man
(sense the sarcasms??)

mayb i just go and submit my assignment
then i go off already??
HMMM

4e3 bbq!

2007-06-24T10:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a hectic day for me! went out of house at 1230pm to go for my training at 2.then after that, bathed and took 88 to go pasir ris interchange. dumb me forgot that the first bus stop didn't have 88 and i sat there and missed 2 bus 72?? after i realised than i quickly took the next bus and change it to 88. lol.

meet chinhui & off we went to the class bbq.

how i missed those days! though not everyone was there... but i really missed those crazy times in class.. i'm so going to miss them during school terms):

photos will be uploaded when i have them((:

4e3 shall study hard for the upcoming semesters especially those in JC x)

troubled!

2007-06-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

有时自己觉得很为难。。一方面要面对这个，另一方面又有另一个烦恼。我好烦。。有时真希望有一个能听我所有的烦恼就好！这样我那小小的脑袋就不必放那么多顾虑啦！半个我很想和他说说话。。仿佛像以前那样。可我讨厌自己没有那个勇气来和他说话。也许偶尔发他一些短讯问候他而已吧。。好希望他能主动一些。

今天和妹妹一起到marina square吃sakae sushi！应该肥了一些，明天又是新的一天。该积极的减肥啦！holiday花了不少钱，开课时得进行一些budget meals啦！Michelle 和我都参与了，谁要加入呢？hehe。我要省钱wor..

好想念baleno kingdom的成员。
想念那些lao jiao，老板，工作伙伴等。。说着说着。。真的很怀念那些日子。

mingkiat going over TM

2007-06-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

当我想到我家老大得去tampines打工时, 我就有mixed feelings.好希望他去的是他用来骗samantha和 ah boy 的...那也就是plaza sing..虽然plaza sing经常有老板下去, 但plaza sing拥有的好处实在比去tampines 打工来得好. 在加上他住west. 如果做morning shift的话, 一定要很早起床..我一定会经常去找他去吃饭^^

真想sb14的每一名成员能没有负担和顾虑,快快乐乐的活着每一天。。

祝福

selection of sch team (fb), words for him

2007-06-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

it was a disappointment ; =\
but i supposed that, that was the best way out
since they want to bring back champion again

i think the ppl chosen in team are good

有时独自一人达车回家时, 不尽会回想那天所发生的事。虽然欺骗母亲说会在学校进行一些project是不对的，但是我不后悔和你去约会。那天不只让我开始认识你，那也是我第一次的dinner date.在那么多project, test, assignments 的压力下，我也算感受到了快乐。你仿佛就象是我生命里的转泪点。你让我体会到这个世界是那么的残忍，但也让我了解live life to the fullest的道理。事实是不能改变的，我想这一点你是比我还清楚的吧。

听了你那一小半的故事时，我终于明白我活在这16年里拥有着的东西也实在太多了。有时有想过是否我能够帮你。。我真的很想带给你幸福。。可是我是否能抛开我心里的constrains吗？或许你曾不了解我那些想法。

但我抱着的希望却是：也许我们能创造出一个奇迹？但我知道，没有你，连奇迹的开始也是不可能的。
你愿意牵着我让我们彼此带给对方幸福吗？

but i know; u will never come back here
let alone knowing how i feel.

shopping with chinhui

2007-06-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

I went out with 3 people and of that 3 I do not really know 2 ppl. cool eh. right. so i went to shop with chinhui & 2 of her colleagues. Then they are like superly LATE la. & while waiting for them we walked through bugis street for 2 times okie! & before waiting for them, we have already toured bugis once already. so it's like i walked there 3 times. oh gosh.

the amt i've spent in just one day...
1 astro boy top = $21.60
1 tank top + 1 cardigan = $23
smth frm watsons = $11.90
fried golden mushrm = $1 (shared with ch)
3 pairs of earrings = $5
1 necklance frm diva = $16
2 drinks at bugis street = $3.50
lunch + drinks = $4.80

wow.. that's like $86.80 and i still haven bought min's belated present cause i really wanted something unique for her & not something decided in a rush (:

it's like i see the 4 digits (before the dot) slowly becoming 3 digits? I NEED MONEY TO SPEND LA!!

is any of my girl friends free on 25th july?? it's a mon though.. pls date me okie! tag at my board.. i'll reply (:

SICK OF LIFE

2007-06-18T16:15:00.000+08:00

Seriously I'M tired;-

I'M tired of keeping a relationship going
I think promises are shits
& Friendships are craps

I know I'm giving up slowly
goodbye everyone;-

fun training! i'm sick

2007-06-17T12:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's training was damn fun la. HAHA. Tiffany is strong cause she makes me have a tiny willy blue black?I think the last part of the training was the most fun one cause we had this training which is similar to the sumo wrestler?Then there was the "butt fight"?It was really funny la.Throughout the whole things with Tiffany I was like laughing till I cant see things properly?

I think the chances of getting into team is like minute? Cause there is seriously a lot of people who are so much better than me la.I know I shouldn't harbor too much thoughts in it.

IMSICK.

but through this, somehow I realised promises are shit?
you seemed to be a changed person after this short period of time.

BESTFRIEND?!

2007-06-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

It just seems to me that friendship means totally nothing to you at all
insulting me through your blog seems something nice
but seriously I couldn't care less
since this is your decision
yes I shall respect that

But what's with pretending to be close with me all along?
Don't you feel like a pathetic creature now?
Don't you?

Yes, you have changed.
till I couldn't even understand what you have been doing
you are no longer the same person whom I knew initially.

crazy me! K boy with PWP girls

2007-06-15T15:37:00.001+08:00

i think i'm crazy cause i've just made myself a drink..
and that is hot chocolate + cereal
& now i think they are nice
oh shit

went K with my darling girls
though not everyone is there
but i guessed i just make do with it?

from BO- ver & me
from S&K- huiyu & yiping

somehow i missed wendi alot
cause of one of the songs which they sang?
i guessed cause she took great care of me??
THANKS BABY :D
i really miss her!!
goanna go MSQ find her soon

saw samantha , MK & ah boy too
and man, i miss MK just as much too!
& thanks for his songs :)

NYP VS YJC

2007-06-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Match was so-so today. it was a draw.
9:9

the seniors are damn good man.

saw my eye-candy!!
oh my, she's like damn cute lahs!
=D

nothing to do la!

2007-06-13T11:04:00.000+08:00

having match later. & i dun have my lanyard with me ):
cfm not going sch on 25th june :D

a test i did..

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

*misses

unhealthy day! shopping with kris, go dentist

2007-06-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

i had the worst meal in my life man
eating junkies for the whole day

breakfast i had this zhu chang fen thing
and 1 bowl of nice chicken soup
then i proceed with eating butter cookies which i found at home

lunch was eating with my sista at kfc
(you can expect the normal stuffs)

dinner was mac + indian rojak
super unhealthy can?

OH MAN!! this shant be the life i'm leading!!

i went shopping with my sister today
and hell, i spent lots of money
a jacket, stationaries and some stuffs at watsons
that's like 40 bucks?!
HAHA

trip to dentist was alright la
not like some monster or smth
lol!

first day of holidays!

2007-06-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

holidays are here
i just want to get enough sleep
seems like i haven been having a good sleep this weeks
) :

i know there's a lot of things which i haven do yet
such as do;;
written assignment for CT
study for Safety in HC & bio
prepare for practical test for bio and lab
theory test for lab
ICA for Safety
case study on FON
ICA for PSYCHO

i just feel lazy ~

initially wanted to go to the dentist
but my mum didnt tell me need to book appointment -.-
luckily i went there for hep B jabs
or else goanna waste my time man

the jab wasnt THAT painful
but it was the after effect
my muscles feel pain ) :
poor pain receptors

i just realised i found lots of blue blacks on me

NURSES !

2007-06-10T14:08:00.000+08:00

lovely nurses to be !

men in white, e3 bbq? ls

2007-06-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

men in white is a crap show
and it's super hilarious la : )

i have been thinking whether i should go for 4e3 gathering
somehow it's like everyone is going in their own grp
it seems to defeat the purpose of having a gathering

beach going .
they have been something which i used to looking fwd
but now.. i 'm not too sure about it
2 bad things cause all these

the problem of human being:
we always have the tendency of rmb bad things
and not the good ones
that's why sometimes we suffer

* * *

silence doesnt mean consent
and since you believe what u think is true
then just leave it hanging there
since whatever i've done/explain doesnt works

u might as well go in ur own way
three years; it's been three years
why cant u just give up on me
like what he did to me

PICTURES !

2007-06-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

welcome to the anatomy of our dude ! x)

what a human skull looks like

a snapshot of my handsome dude.. heh

another part of him .. with no left fingers

dude holding onto mich.. omg

fooling time !!

eileen's new bf ??!

part of my clicks

mich and feei chyin

MICH ! cute right.. hahas

ANISA & ME !

and lastly;

my moomoo's birthday !

moomoo's birthday ! meet samantha

2007-06-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th birthday to my MOO MOO !
we bought her SOCKS and a nike bottle
finally we can get ride of her STINKY FOOT !
& the bottle right was a GREEN one
which yeeleng, michelle and i have it too !

meet samantha today
AND she was late again !!!
thus i went to BO TM and do FREE LABOUR
-fold clothes !!
things i'm super good in in the past
but i think my skills lousy already
very long never do folding le..

will upload the photos of moo moo and me
& me with darling SAMANTHA !
<3 !

PROJECT WORK !

2007-06-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

project and more project coming up
together with wonderful tests

oh well
wad a nice way to welcome poly students

first day of sch submit assignment
SHIT MAN !!
and must hand in b4 12pm !
i'm not going for classes
cause that day only have PSYCHO 1h

classes start at 10 tmr
and that's a cheer for joy !!

meeting samantha tmr as well !
double joy !!!!

najib and me in lab lessons
LOL!

feeling sick

2007-06-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

i feel sick, dehydrate and tired
damn it !!

i must not feel sick at any time now
i must maintain healthy and good !!
and at the worst time to get sick too

i rather be sick during the holis
LOL -.-
sounds sick-in-the-mind
but hell, who cares la
i rather sacrifice my holiday
then be sick during term

with those important lessons
and there's so much things to catch up

hell, i think i must really start revising la
with that 206 bones in our body
and those bio terms

and not including those troublesome ICA
i think 24 hours a day aint enough
and my sleep time seems to reduce by alot nowadays
shit man !!

& my dear friend, pls return to SG soon !

untruth secondary life

2007-06-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

NO, i'm not escaping anything .
it's just that i think many parts of secondary sch life
i fail to find out many truths .

sometimes we let our friends mislead us
sometimes what we heard isnt true, yet we choose to believe
probably this is just the nature of me
you just cant change me ya ?
: )

i might have done 2 people wrong
i may have showed signs of biasedness towards them
but dun they have done something wrong initially?

no no, i dun wan to fight .
it's useless to fight
after all, everyone has grown up now

can we still know each other right from the start ?
i'll do what i should .

long long to do list..

2007-06-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

my to do list is long

i cant wait for the holi to meet PWP girls
i'm waiting for e3 class gathering
i'm looking fwd to the nurses gathering

i want to watch blades of glory!!
and i'm waiting for the chinese ghost movie to come out

waiting to meet MK for sam's treat : )
and waiting for my sakae treat frm CH!

and i'm waiting to meet CHUA and SIMIN too! xD!
not forgetting my dear sista.. JONATHAN! : )

damn it!

2007-06-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

i am feeling damn disappointed .
pw was a total disaster
so much errors
so much things left out

& this pw make me realize:

i shldnt do things last minute and left it hanging there
whenever i do things MUST have a conclusion
i'm plainly dumb
i've plenty to learn

somehow it really make me think wad i really wan in my life
how am i going to strive for them

as usual,
i did not get a conclusion yet
but somehow i dunnoe why
tears flowed down

it was like..
when the results were pronounced
my heart skipped a beat

and when i laugh
it doesnt mean i'm okay
it's just a way to make me feel better

but i realize i wasnt any better
i laugh as usual, talk as usual
but i just feel that it's just so not me

damn upset
too much things had happened today

with 2 ppl missing in fb
with mic not going for lessons
damn it

today was just so not my day ) :

no one whom i want to talk to were there
they were just too busy with their own life now
work ones go work
one left my life long time ago, refusing to come back
another one physically wasn't here
and i'm missing him right now

taxing project, quarreling parents, reborn my hair

2007-05-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELL!
i'm so sick of project works
now i understood wad mich means
it's taxing
yes it is

and my parents quarrelled AGAIN
cant be bothered anyway

changed my hair style today
and i cant wait to highlight them in like 1 month later?
: )

and i'm off to sleep now :D

disaster presentation

2007-05-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

today's presentation was like a disaster?
i'll look into today's comment given
and improve myself
: )

one presentation down,
two more to go; F.O.N and psycho
hopefully the outcome'd be great

ph tmr, getting my good and early sleep cause i'm just too tired
and it's finally a break

i'm lazy to get my butt out of the house to
town to get the right size for my lappie
and cut my hair and probably do some highlight?
: ))

friends doesnt leave people in the lurch
and if u do that i supposed
that'd mean u aint even a friend

and now i know
how u took steps to forget me
fine fine .
i dun give it a damn either

all those time seem totally STUPID
and to think i wasted my precious youth
to be bothered to do STUPID stuffs

stupid sch! ch confirm

2007-05-28T16:40:00.001+08:00

i went to school without getting any knowledge
class sucks today
because it's like i onli attend 1h of class?
and 50 min of test?
and that's all

WASTE TIME ONLY!!

how i wish i had my besties with me
and we'd be having fun etc

and i'm so happy that CH was confirm
= )
*loves*

things i wan to do

2007-05-26T10:28:00.000+08:00

Things i wan to do during term break:

meet my darlings in/from sb14
go K with the girls
teach PRINCESS DIANA
do preparatory work for school
chiong maple till 60?
slack
go shopping
train for fb?

: )

stupid sch! meet samantha. go wangzai. princess diana =)

2007-05-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

i went for 1h and 3o min of class today.
and point is to go to and fro sch i need 2 and a half hour
it's such a waste of my time!

did project work in library for 3 hours
and i left sch at 1.40pm?

phoned samantha cause she doesnt want to go shopping
and we decided to meet and have a meal?
and when i reach tamp at 3
she's still at home
oh gosh

and i waited for 1hour for my dear?
but it's okay la
cause i was like doing my ICA la
hahas!

i really miss her alot!
it've been ages since i last seen her
so we went to wangzai (pasir ris) to eat
it was NICE!

but i miss hk cafe more!!
i miss the 2 trips i had there
although the 2nd one wasnt really that great
cause xiao bu's leaving?

heading down to PS this sun!
i cant wait to see xiao BU!
my another darling =)

I hope my darling PRINCESS DIANA is feeling better
hope to see the noisy and playful her; not the sad one
I wish she'll get into NYP and be a wonderful nurse like me!
i just hope she doesnt regret anything when she take her cert

just like me
i was so upset over my english result and my physics too
):

no fb- mum. listen during lectures!

2007-05-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

my mum was kind of against me of joining the team for fb ) :
she thought i just wanted to join for leisure
no no no!
i wan to take part in competitions!
i wan to score = )

and najib is in fb too!
in sch team = )
shall get him to teach me more ways to improve
and train for the better

* * *

i need to pay more attention during lectures
i seem to be either sleeping or talking
and i do not do any revision at home
so this explains the poor results i'm getting during bio test
and i'm still very sad over it ) :

somehow i think having a sch that isn't near my house aint too good
long bus rides are forever making me sleepy
and i've never feel well taking long bus rides
due to motion sickness

having bio lessons early in the morning!
ZzZ! time for sleep = )

end of bio test. YP again. NURSING IS GOOD!

2007-05-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

biology test is finally over!
and it calls for a break now

gotten a C, which is 60-69%
i know i would have gotten a better grades
if i really studied over the weekends

but on the other hand
i think a 60+ percent aint too bad la!

more and more projects coming up
and i wonder why SOME people just dun understand this?
i know the course i'm studying like wad many had mentioned, it's a 28 points course
but that doesn't mean there isn't projects or hwk!

there's so much things to do
and i'm sure the amount of homework is much more than others
having e learning and pre-reading
who says nursing is only for those ppl who are lousy in O

that's wad the public's POV
it's only through going though the whole process
than YOU can understand how much work we are doing

* PISSED *
i just dun understand what u are thinking

* * *

As time goes on, i wondered if nursing is the right career for me
but somehow, i think it's a blessing to offer our NURSING CARE to patients
and see them get well
isn't like a form of happiness? (:

it's true, it's not an easy job
but somehow i hope this is the right career for me
i really think nurses are great people!

but i heard lots of things from those working in hospitals
and i think it's quite sad.
so i must be someone who's going to make a difference in the world!

people, give me moral support!!
hahas!

crazy me!!

2007-05-21T21:33:00.000+08:00

i think i seriously need to see a psychiatrist .
i do have a problem that's bothering me for a long period of time .
i must get my problem cured soon!

* * *

BIOLOGY is still trying to get hold of me
cause the test aint over yet!

projects, projects and more projects are coming up on week seven .
i'm dying from the large amount of homework

Things i have to complete tmr:

video on f.o.n
read lab skills for class

Things to complete next week:

LIFE SCIENCE test (MON)
FOUNDATION OF NURSING ICA 2 (TUE)
CRITICAL THINKING ICA 4 (WED)
DRAFT OF PSYCHOLOGY (FRI)
DISCUSSION FOR TUTORIAL 2 (FRI)

& how am i supposed to complete all of them in one week?
i feel so crazy if i am able to complete all of them
* HELP *

THANK GOD, it's all lectures on thurs!

i need a large strength to drive me through this.
probably i need u?

bio test!

2007-05-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

BIO TEST!
they are driving me mad

and i'm losing the momentum to keep myself in track!
losing control of my mind

i must be the nice and wonderful nurse!!
must keep myself in the right track soon!

=D

I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS !
chua: for those indian rojaks and sakae sushi times
chinhui: for those shopping times and spending money
simin: for those nonsensical craziness and everything
xiao bu n mrs rain: for those fun and laughters in sb14
diana: for being a naughty girl but full of jokes
yiping: for those chats outside pwp and long bus rides
samantha: for always standing up for the rights of sb14

& MK & AH BOY & JOAN

collect fb sticks

2007-05-19T10:05:00.000+08:00

collecting my fb sticks later =)
yay-ness!!

but i got to go sch ALONE
and go back ALONE
lol.

upset man ):

probably i shld go visit lao nu ren!
or shld i visit my martini textbook again?
cause i want to finish my whole revision by today
and i can relax on sun and mon .
isn't it cool.

HAHA =)

weekends! bio lessons are good!

2007-05-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

It's the end of the week again!
finally, i get some rest cause there wont be any meeting on sunday
although there'll be bio test next tue
but i'll make sure i'm fully prepared
and not be late on that day .

anisa is my darling!
and the both of us are like super crazy during today's lecture
we have private jokes about something
and it's like quite sick la .
it was actually a simple thing
and i wondered how come we could laugh till that stage

and the both of us have decided to buy the sony mp3 tgt
HAHA
guessed we have similar mind set (:

today BIO was the best ever
having anisa sitting right beside me
joke until i laugh almost non stop
and the whole grp of us teasing sangeeta
damn funny throughout the whole thing

and the lesson today was the most interesting!
i swear i want to right more and more notes during KJ's lecture
cause it's really interesting

the practical lesson was just as good as the lecture
cause instead of a 2 hours lesson
we onli had like 4o min?
BUT the lesson were filled with impt stuffs
hopefully i get this lecturer again

cause i like the speed he's talking
and he's like helping us to do revision today?
'tho i dun understand alot of things
but i've decided to study hard for bio
cause it's interesting and important for a wonderful nurse to-be
and that's ME =D

and lots of pictures have been taken during pract
will post it soon
hah!

i love my classmates
i love the way they are
especially my grp
we always have things to talk about
jokes to share
<3!

new song! nice nice!
and check out this chinese song.. 我可以
i think i'd like it if someone i'm in love sings that
isn't the song sweet =)

new songs updated in imeem.com!
click here for the link

i dun quite know why
it's always like i miss ur presence?
somehow, my smiles are like created by you?
(=

never let you go lyrics

2007-05-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

Janice Wei Lan - Never Let You Go Lyrics

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,

*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go

biological sciences test

2007-05-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

there's this biological sciences test next tue
and now i'm seriously like going crazy?
cause it's like so not easy

test covered what was taught in the whole month
but somehow
i just couldnt understand everything

is it b cos of the fact this is the first test?
or was it that i'm getting panic cause i dunnoe anything?
i dun want to fail this test at all .

and i goanna finish my revision in like 4 days?
which haven exclude one day for project (sun)
one day to collect my fb sticks in sch (sat)
and mon i'm meeting ks to teach on those things
which means i got to finish my revision first

argh. stress-ed!!
and i think in the whole month we were taught
i only understand like less than 1 week of work?
damn it .

go MSQ to find wendi, YP cheated me!

2007-05-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

MY SISTER IS BUYING ME THE CRUMPLER LAPTOP BAG
oh yeah oh yeah
i'm like so super damn happy
and i'm getting the black one =))))

and i've paid for my fb sticks!
such a nice day with so much things!
and i've decided to get a new contact lens
and i want to go New Urban Male to look for bags
and to buy the sony MP3!!
woo hoo!

phoned my xiao bu after classes
and i realised she wasnt working today
argh sian-ed

so i called MSQ for wendi
and she's working!

so i went to find her, my dear dear!!
missing her to bits and pieces
specially went down to look for her

then i saw the 1ST MAN.
frm IMM last time
see, i've good memories

too bad sze li and yi ping wasnt there .
and i realised something, VERY WRONG .
and trust me, i'm feeling pissed off .

you wasnt as simple as u seemed
you aint the innocent who was well-liked by everyone
cause u aint that simple
and to think i've thought i knew u well enough
it's all WRONG, very wrong .
i hate the current you, but what can i do ?
you will never know the horrible truth .

i wan to head down to PWP
and borrow mk's katherine mcphee disc
and burn them
OH MY GOD
i'm so in love with her songs .
NICE NICE NICE ! =D

funny day

2007-05-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

It seems like my blog has been constantly updated
with rubbish .

so ya .
today's lab lesson was super INTERESTING la
we had the mannequin's sex organs changed .
damn funny throughout the lessons
cause many hospital jokes were exchanged .
and we learn how to bath sponge a patient !
not forgetting to change the bed linen =)

and foundation of nursing tutorial was funny too !
the lecturer was damn nice la .
i was like rushing for my lunch
so i told my group members to like hurry up and finish the questioning for the lecturer ?
then the lecturer say 'okay, I'll hurry up and say what i should'
SO NICE RIGHT?

i only know i had no idea of what critical thinking was all about
cause i wasn't even listening to the lesson
and i was doing some songs stuffs on my lappie

i think the biology classes require LOTS of attention
i dun quite know many things there la
and test is on next Tuesday ?
i hope i dun fail it cause it's 25% of the score
and I'll waste 6 months for retaking the module

and i'm back to my darling martini textbook again
:)

thanks kingston =)

2007-05-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

tho' there's lots of things which i cant really tell u yet
but if we are really like closer
maybe i can consider telling those facts?
and those things u doesnt even know about me

seriously i think my mum still love me
and she still cares about me
so ya =)

wanna thank sm1
it's like for pei-ing the whole afternoon & evenings?
HAHA. thanks la (u know who u are)
=P

meeting with ver and diana!

2007-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

today was like so fun!
met fishball verlin and princess diana

first went to have lunch with the two girls and chinhui at pastamina. then after that, chinhui break ended and zhi xiong came so we pei-ed him for lunch and i saw simin and zhi kuang again! after that we went to arcade to play hockey. super high la. and me and zhi xiong win the 2 girls!! HAHA. and i got a pic of zhi xiong eating lolipop and the picture is like super funny la. look like taken in a studio but it's not. HAHA.

& that's zhi xiong!

& did u believe that's me?
i'm not as crazy as zhi xiong!
(i miss my tag!!)

then after that we went about searching for shoes for miss diana cause her leg hurts and she wan to buy a new shoe. so she bought a pair already then we went to CS to take neoprints. it's super fun!!! after that went to the CS toilet and we went high again! take lots of pictures there.. HAHA. waiting for ver to send them to me soon!

taken in CS toilet!!

after that we went to wang zai for dinner! i just had porridge only. it wasnt as bad as how ver had describe them la! and it was with MR RABBIT la, miss diana darling boyfriend! HAHA! then after eating, we went to more than words to buy things.. and i saw the same person at cinelesiure! and he turned out to be rabbit's friend. OMG, small world ar. i bought a BIG box to put all my text book in! and it's super nice.. hahas..

then we went to popular as ver and diana wan to buy things and we took a long long time to wait for them to make up their mind.. hahas. after that we walked down to NTUC to buy things again. and oh man, the two girls are super aunty la! HAHA.

and that's the end of how i spent my saturday.
tiring but full of fun!

THE SPIRIT OF SB14 will NEVER DIE!!! =DDD

school.

2007-05-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Just when i need a listening ear, i just find myself being helpless and have no one to talk to. somehow ever since the introduction of poly life started, or probably since when i started work, everything seemed to change totally and somehow i wasnt really used to it. secondary sch life is still the best.

had a conversation with my ex e3 ppl. and i just feel that the feeling of us just change. jokes which i might laugh in the past wasnt funny at all. somehow i've become liike a horrible monster who goes around giving sarcastic remarks. this is so unlike me!

doing craziest acts ever, i guess they are my only source of entertainment nowadays. my class people are either those studious type or else they'd b those cant be bothered type. and i'm kinda stuck in the middle , mayb just like some of them too..

it's so not easy trying to fit in.

Practical today was like super funny. Eileen, yee leng and i were busy talking, sms-ing and taking photos in lab even when the teacher is teaching.. COOL MAN.

sweetie looking eileen and me

we love bones!!

me and my bone again..

bonnie ~!!!

it was SUPPOSED to be a nice pic
but Theodore spoils the whole thing
argh.

red blood cell

and my sister and mum keep calling during the time in lab even when i tell them i'm still in class, they sill continue talking like siao like that. lol.

and i met KELVIN YAP! my first library chairman! he's a nice NICE NICE guy and he always talk till no one can hear one. lols! and he's sick. do take care of urself! oh, and he's in NYP too! hahas!

went for shopping today and i think i spent quite a sum of money..

lappie crushed!

2007-05-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

my lappie nearly hang me down
and i wonder what's wrong
cause it's like suddenly the start bar was changed to classic instead of XP
i almost had a heart attack okie!

but i believe,
the smart wei-qi has fixed the whole problem
hopefully it doesn't shut down on me anymore
=)

everything just somehow change
we seemed to have drifted in these few days
or rather this few ~~hours~~
and i'm not so used to this ) :

i miss e3!

2007-05-10T12:40:00.000+08:00

somehow classes in poly are never the same as compared with darling e3
i ~~hate~~ doing self motivation
it sucks totally

it's always like there's distraction in classes
especially in lecture theater
and i'm like always tired in classes

i cant sleep in classes!
i must study study study!
i know it's so NOT like me
but i guessed in poly
this is what i have to do.

with those upcoming ICA
i wanna go kill myself soon

just went to print those CBT stuffs i saw
cost me a bomb cos it's like in colour?
$19.5o for 43 colour printed and 3 B&W

i wanna go buy stuffs soon
i wan to meet everyone
i miss each and everyone ):

but i dun know who i can meet
cause of time again. classes ends at 3
and i have to reach home latest by 7.3o

sick, training

2007-05-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

i was feeling super sick today.
flu and cough.
and my class ppl say i looked pale.

went for floorball training
and i saw kiyoko and huey yen
sounds quite fated eh
didnt know they'd b there

will b paying for my sticks next wed
looking fwd to it..

interesting things i heard from michelle
i rmb my mum always say no washing of face directly after exercising. cause there'll b white spots. WRONG! it wont happen IF u wash ur face with a cleanser. to clear off those dirt and everything =)

i just realised it's been so long
yet i still haven gotten the things i wan in my 'wants list'
):

i want to get a proper shoe for training
and the next thing will b a laptop casing
and then a shoe bag
but i think a sch bag is like equally important?
)))):

think i'm going amk to look for them..
but alone? ):

not enough sleep,uncomfortable, training tmr.

2007-05-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

i think i'm becoming more "MAN" each day. cause i can sleep for like 3 and a half hour at night and i go school feeling energetic la. OH MAN. who can do till this extent other than me? HAHA. my dear friend cant even do it. and he's on the way to his dreamland already.

today school was like crazy. slacking mainly throughout the lessons. critical thinking just sucks! =x and i supposed as usual i just sleep for half the lesson cause i wasn't really feeling well this few days. after any meals i just feel bloated even if i didn't eat a lot. and i'm having stomach upsets la ):

not too sure whether it's from food source or my stomach/liver/what ever wasn't really functioning well, thus i just dun feel good totally): hopefully the discomfort would go away soon then i dun have to see a doctor and to take any medicines =x

something interesting to share..
do u people know that when one is having fever then our parents will put this wet towel on our forehead? it doesn't really reduce the fever but just reduce the discomfort our head is having! interesting right.. all along i got wrong information -.-

oh did i mention, the DNA of a human being is damn interesting especially the sex chromosomes. not really into the sexual contact but sex as in gender. it's about the problem who has extra or lesser chromosome will have what problem. i think human being are just so interesting. but i dun understand why michelle and me have the habit to sleep in LTK-2. probably it's really nice atmosphere la.

i think syed is super unlucky today la. He lost his thumbdrive, all the CT research he had done, did wrong tutorial (like me and sangeeta) and got tickled off by some rubbish stuffs by our lab lecture.. it's just like not his day la..

having floor ball training tomorrow! and i'm like looking forward to it :D although it's sad that pei jun aint going, but Ki-yo-ko (sp??) and huiyan is coming so it aint really that bad i guessed =) been a week plus since i last seen huiyan la.

another group discussion is up next again. damn those tutorials. why do we have to do so much e learning and so much discussion. waste my time!!

went to find mr fadhil together with my long lost friend, dennis (LOL!) at 2o1 there and seriously i think the both of us are superly mean la. we went to buy him a brand of lemon tea which he hate cause of certain incident that happen before that =P and the clerk transfered over here is super pretty!! hahas! no wonder dennis say he (obviously not dennis...) flirt with the clerk over there...

result slip, n ah boon

2007-05-08T01:55:00.000+08:00

I thought ah boon will be doing relief at TM. but sadly, he didnt turn up ))): i really miss ah boon and ah seng la. the two brothers. LOL. they're so nice ppl. been a long time since i last seen traces of my lao nu ren. i must go down PS someday to look for her man.. wonder who i shall ask along. =P

my mood was super dampened when i realised he's not there.. so sad. then i went back to TPSS to collect my cert. i think my english marks spoil the whole thing. haiz.

got to have my good night sleep already! it's way past my sleeping time already and i've got to wake up at 6 tmr. which is about 4 hours only!! *lights out*

problem resolve for IE

2007-05-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

resolve the problem of my blogskin problem so now both IE and Firefox can see what my posts are. but somehow i still feel that the view on IE isn't really as nice as those one'd see in Firefox cause of those spaces in between certain boxes.

my class has a blog.lol

floorball VS kayaking

2007-05-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

floorball training was nice although i must say the timing really half way through cause it's like 2pm till 5pm. but we went at 5.3o and i went to change. after that exchanged numbers with pei jun and we went back home. it's like so not easy to find people living in the east..

i really want to join floorball.. but somehow i'm reluctant to give up kayaking. even tho' i know i'm not really cut for kayaking cause i don't really have the energy to do those inclined pull ups tho' i can run la. so i guessed i might be giving up that )):

* * *

lab work 1o91 was damn nice.. interesting and we can really learn a lot of things. i realised something thru the last lesson. I dun have a regular heartbeat and my heartbeats are rather faint.. am i dying soon? =x

i think my lecture is rather strict but i think she's really NICE!
1 min late = absent
I'll remember that man. hahas

* * *

人心难测。。
is it true that the person isn't really as nice as how i perceive? i'm confused. she's really someone close to my heart. but somehow it seems like people do change. she is no longer the same person i used to know a long time ago. probably i'm just naive, and unsure of what my future holds for me..

now i understand why it means when i always say "BK 没有秘密". now i finally understood the whole theory. no no, let me rephrase: now i think i understood what it means.

~ * ~ * ~ * ~

why do people love to back stab, bad mouth each other? is this really the human nature? does everyone purposely ~~or unintentionally~~ do those things? all along i thought all this are for kids, like in primary school. so why is it like i see them in secondary schools and in so many places.

everyone seems to be changing, and slowly i can sense myself changing too. my temper has been rather curbed though i still have this habit of shooing back at people.. but somehow i have a higher expectations for my e3 friends... sigh.. is this a good sign or not?

somehow i feel rather depressed
more time are spend on day dreaming
instead of productive learning

and i wondered if TRUE FRIENDS still exist

somehow i'm just not so me
but on the other hand,
i'm still the same old me

right decision?

2007-05-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

looking at the video in CT really makes me think whether i'm really cut to be a nurse. i mean seriously la, so many things to face with. the sisters, doctors, patients, patients' families. doing OT and everything.

somehow the honey moon period has really gone and i really need to get back to my feet to prepare for this long long route i'm planning in my life. seriously speaking, i've absolutely no idea what is it like working in the hospital. I've never been into one (other than the time i was born) and i've absolutely no idea what is the life inside. is it dead or is it lively? which part of the hospital do i want to be specialized in? which hospital do i want to go? will i do any mistake to harm my client? all those thoughts are like running while in my head.

i hope i can preserve in nursing. at least i want to get my staff nurse position and that's getting a diploma. if i can get it, i believe obtaining a adv dip and then to a degree wont be too hard then.

* * *

project works are like getting me mad. lots of work and e learning to do.. yet it seems so little time.. duration on the bus are like forever and i'm getting home everyday almost at 7. getting a bath and by the time i finish my dinner would be like 8pm already. got to do project research and doing e learning it wouldnt be long and it'd be 11, 12already. and i have to get up at 5 or 6 each morning. and i have to endure for another 3 years. OMG.

michelle's birthday, kayaking

2007-04-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

It's Michelle's birthday today! sweet seventeen girl!

i believed i was smart today cause i didn't go for the tutorial in the morning cause it's like e learning! pity those people who had to wake up so early to go for that.. =P Eileen cant attend the class cause she overslept and she's super lucky cause it's e learning.. same goes for Michelle..

then after lecture, the whole group of us went to amk for our pizza hut's meal together with Justin, Yee Leng's friend. our group mainly consist of me, Michelle, Eileen, Yee Leng and Feei Chyin. it was a nice nice meal.. been a long time since i last eaten pizza hut's la. i miss swensens' as well as sakae sushi and i really miss hanging out w my girls.. ):

me, feei chyin, mich

me, eileen, feei chyin, yee leng, mich

kayaking was nice although it was really tough on my wrist cause it seems that was my weakest point.. so hmm. the seniors are choosing the better ones out from the group. somehow it's like i'm having mixed feelings about this. haiz.. wondered if i made the right choice..

AND IT's 12am now and it's labour day! happy labour day to all esp students cause we dun have to study! HAHAHA!

things i wan!

2007-04-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

~*~Things i wan asap~*~
a black/white/dark brown jacket
a nice white/black bag for lecture notes
green ipod nano

~*~Things i wan but not in a rush~*~
a new phone by end of the year
a bluetooth adapter for my lappie
learn yoga
new watch

(and the list goes on....)

third week

2007-04-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

It's Monday tomorrow again. which means there's sch and my cca again =) i just love those trainings.. it's really goanna be a long long long day, but i supposed things will be fine. classes will be starting at 1110, ending at 12pm. and electives will begin at 2pm till 5pm and kayaking will begins at 6pm, ending about 9pm. cool.

It will be week three tomorrow and there's still lots of things i'm not too sure about it. especially biology sciences and there's no one i can ask help from.. i understand that knowing the names of body parts are important.. but somehow it's not too easy to remember them.. worse still, i believe we have to know those spellings right. oh man. my dead points..

But one thing i'm sure.. It's only the third week.. so i wont give up so easily. it's only been 1o days of school. how can i give up so easily. this is so unlike me la. i guessed. but i believe i goanna strive real hard if i really want to make it to local U. It's not going to be easy i know but with preservation, i believe i can do it. i must have faith in myself.. i can do it definitely.

i believe with beliefs, i can do it.
so everyone, do have some faith in me.

going back to pwp

2007-04-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

i finally got back to PWP SB14!! YAY! super super happy to see them. oh man, the feeling is something which i just cant describe la. managed to see MK, ah boy, Felix and not forgetting samantha! and i saw Hui yu also la. HAHA. too bad didnt get to see yi ping and joan ):

got my 38 bucks back from the company and will be getting pay tonight as well.. HAHAHAHA!! super good can. class ends at 11am today and i took 76 to see them.. overall it was great. looking at warehouse's bus stop area and pwp.. really makes me think back on those days.. oh sigh.. but i really really enjoyed everything over there other than that someone in the past. oh well, let's forgive and forget bah.

today was super fun la. i had breaks with 3 different people. it was super funny la. first was having break with MK and we went to yoshinoya which was like 'finally, mk did change his mind instead of eating BK'..HAHA. then after that i went to eat MOS burger with Samantha.. it was really nice to eat la. then after that when it was about her break end, then we went back to shop and saw AH BOY at smoking area. then my first reaction was like OMG, what happen to your hair lah.. it was damn funny la. then actually i realised there was many people looking at me la. hahas.

AH BOY, MK and SAMANTHA all change their hairstyle and it was superly funny la. i seriously miss them (= though the journey to there and going back home was a very long one, but somehow it's really worth it.. for seeing them....... =D

single and loving it

2007-04-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

I just feel as though i've finally understood some of the concepts in life. no matter how bad things are, it seems at the end of the day we'll definitely gain something. be it good or bad, cause i know my route has long been plan for me by the special one up there. it's only dependent on oneself whether you want to believe it or not.

somehow i just feel after 9 months, i understood what i really want and i've finally got my answer after such a long wait.. no wait, probably it sholdn't be considered long.. certain people have got an entire lifetime just to find out their answer.. whereas i took less than a year. maybe this is called affinity =DDD

i love my current life right now =)
-single and liking it-

stressed.

2007-04-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

i feel super stressed up now. and it's only the beginning of week one. lecture's has been alright, but somehow there's lots of terms i am expected to know but somehow i just couldn't remember them well. and exams are like in a month's time. how to finish studying by then? seriously, i have never, never fuss over my exams or even tests. probably it's due to the fact i've not attended biology in my secondary school days and now i'm getting frustrated over those big big words which i get to see them in my lecture notes. ('chim' words: hypochondrium, epigastrium, lumbar region, iliac region, hypogastrium, umbilical region)

maybe i'm slowly losing the confidence i once had. probably it's due to my dearest 4e3. somehow studying seems weird without them. without them to study together with me just feel entirely different. somehow it feels as if i lost an arm or something cause i know, whenever i'm unsure about anything i've lots of people to fall back to and i know, they wont leave me behind. now, i'm unsure of what the future holds for me. I admit i do make friends, but i know, it takes time for me to know their inner self as well.

i wanna share my work piece with you people.. some inner thoughts of myself and my profession (= and i wanna thank ridzwan, kingston and yingyun for helping me!! thanks people! x)

the question: do you think that nurses should always be selfless and courageous?

I believe that they (nurses) should always place their patient’s health as the priority instead of their personal feelings. This is because the main aim of being a nurse is to delicate their service to the health care and ensure their patients take the least number of days to recover. If every nurse always thinks about his or her feelings as the priority, then the service they provide for their patients will definitely suffer and many patients will take plenty days to recover from their illness. If this happens in the long run, the entire workforce in that particular country will suffer as none of the nurses will try their best to provide service to the sick. The hospital and the patients will have to spend a huge sum of money as the patient stays for a longer period of time in the hospital.

A nurse has to be courageous as they, being the role model of the public, should be able to face with danger every time they are in the hospital as they, themselves have to expose their own bodies to the bacterial and germs that are available in the wards. If all the nurses are fearful of death and refused to work, then there will not be able people who will render their services to the sick and thus, it’ll result in more death in the particular country.

However, there would be times when nurses should be selfish. For example, when they are handling patient 1 by helping them to go to a certain location such as aiding them to the toilet, a family member of patient 2 comes and asks the nurse to help. The nurse should be selfish by rejecting the family member of patient 2 as patient 1 may have problems with his own and thus, he needed a nurse. If the nurse decides to go with the family member and leave patient 1 there, he (patient 1) may have a fall and injured himself. Thus I believe to a certain extent, a nurse may have some acts of selfishness. However, in this case, the nurse may choose to let another nurse go with patient 2’s family member.

The nurse can be afraid of death to some degree as well. They themselves are also a human being and may have their own family or parents to take care of. Therefore, it is not unusual for a nurse to be afraid of death as they might not want their own family to grieve over their death. In addition, they might have their own worries like having to take care of a young child in the family. In addition the nurses themselves might be the sole breadwinner of the family and thus they should not be “killed” by the illness thus it is reasonable enough not to work at the very front line to render their service to health care.

up to you to agree a not, but to a certain extent, i think i'm quite reasonable =)) anyway, it was my discussion topic actually. tomorrow's lesson will be a breeze. one lecture and one tutorial and class ending at 12pm. But got to stay back for my project work and for kayaking. hope things will be fun everyday =D

you you and YOU

2007-04-22T16:24:00.000+08:00

suddenly looking back at those post i once blog in another account, it really makes me ponder whether i should regret my initial decision or not. is it right? or was it wrong? i really cant decide. but one thing for sure, the first few days were once the happiest moments i ever had. it was fun to be with you, nothing to worry. but it was rather silly of me to forsake my studies.

in another perspective, i must say probably it was a right decision to stop everything during mid july. which at least, i had the chance to focus on my education. but sometimes i wondered, if everything continuted on, probably i'd have scored better? cuz i know, for certain subjects when i was taking during 'O', my mind was still filled with you you and still YOU. i imagined u to be there with me and everything.

only months and months later, did i have the guts to speak out what i've been thinking all day long. it has been a pain for so long.. i really wanna be friends back with you again. but why i cant see that opportunity coming towards my way. but if it really comes, can i really make the right decision? i guess it's goanna be something very embarrassed la. *hais*

only after 9 months, 9 months of my life later did i really find out wad i really want in my life. i have found out what i really want in my life and that's to achieve my best in NYP. at least that's what i'm aiming for now. i really wanna get a degree in NUS!! =DD

misc (=

2007-04-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

I'VE FINALLY GOT A LABTOP.
was like.. finally.

so i still wanna my green ipod nano
and i wan to get a thumbdrive, a bluetooth adaptor for my labtop
and i probably need a bigger bag for all my lecture notes and my laptop

after so long, i've finally got my decision la, and i'm getting the smaller version of the notebook. cuz it's like $4oo over cheaper, less bulky. but on the other hand, i managed to upgrade this notebook i have to a bigger ram (which my sis says it's for speed) and it's lighter(:

got a whole day of lecture and i tell u, it sucks la!!!! horrible lectures. and i got to wake up at 5.3o la!! damn tiring on my way back home w so much lecture lots, and the notebook.. my shoulder nearly break into two pieces la.

I'm joining NYP's Student Union!!!!! and i'm unsure whether i'd like to choose floorball or canoeing..... cuz the both of them seems nice...

first day of sch, pissed off.

2007-04-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

I'm just so pissed off by wad my sch did lahs. first was the labtops thing. none seemed even to bothered w it. so wells, i think i just goanna buy it thru the fair rather than waiting for this school to approve my interest free labtop thing la. cuz it's like by the time they approve, the fair is like already finish la. so how? just buy it loh. i guess i just loan like 1k from my sister or wad? and i got to pay the rest ):

second was there was this stupid error on my class schedule. it written as us, after our lecture there'd be a 2hours break b4 the e learnin thing. BUT it turn out to be a typo error. it wasnt suppose to be gp 14, but was gp 24. so my whole class waited for two hours before we go to the e learning lab and we were told it wasnt our time slot. argh.

oh, and today was the first day of school. lecture was damn funny la.

thanks to jonathan.. ahaha

2007-04-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

i wanna thank JONATHAN, yes big jon, for being there when i needed company :D
thanks pal!

orientation

2007-04-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

today's my orientation. and it's superly fun. GP FOURTEEN! made new frens there which includes michelle, fei4 qin2, elieen and yee leng. saw lots and some of my pri sch friends like yu ye, yi ting... guess that's abt it ba.. and saw some of tpss ppl.. like joanna, bi zhen, swee yee, fatin and of cuz my mummy, YY!

i cant really express how fun the games there were.. i guess my student mentors were jus nice=) my gp got the consolation prize.. hahhaas. food were distrbuted to us.. the hungry souls. it was fun doing all those cheers and playing those games guess that's wad team spirits were abt..

oh by the way, the food given to us arent nice ): everyone complained abt them.. hahhaahah

meeting des tmr for ruimin's chalet! =))

sch's starting soon :D

2007-04-08T14:47:00.000+08:00

School's starting soon. pretty looking forward to it. imagine having attachments in year one, which i think is good.. So i dun have study as much as others, but i can get into more hands on work :D yiting, my primary sch mates, will be taking the same diploma as me. and so it ying yun and bizhen. hopefully all of us get into the same class?

Orientation's coming this fri (13th april) and school's starting on the 16th. It's pretty rush especially my school is having the last orientation of all nyp.

Chinhui's coming to my sch tmr. and i have to make a trip down to nyp again nxt week before my orientation cuz i got to sumbit the form for my labtops which is goanna be damn sian la.

never contented

2007-04-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

Somehow i ought to feel fortuate.

I have wonderful parents who cares for me.
a dad to bring in money to pull me thru my poly or probably uni.
i have a ultra good mum who cooks things i wanna eat
i have a jie who never fails to lead me
i have a younger sister whom i can dote on
i dun have to worry about money matters like my frens

but i dun understand why i'm never contented

was it the society to blame?
or probably i'm well-fed since young

all good things come to an end.

2007-04-02T11:06:00.001+08:00

No matter wad, all good things will come to an end and it's true.

After four months and 1o days of work for pwp sb14, it's finally time for me to move on to something else and that's prepare for schooling in nyp. kind of looking forward to nyp. but still, i'm missing my collegues now.

vividly, i can still recall my first day of work. it's as though things have jus passed a day ago. i still remember how i preserve for the first and a half month working w HER. things werent good at all. i still rmb the first conversation Jun Jie said. and i believe my shocking expression. cuz it's like he's an ah beng la. and he asked me whether i wanted a drink or smth and he asked me to buy chicken wing from crystal jade..

xiao jing looked pretty fierce and i didnt talk to her much. and after my first week of work, both xiao jing and jun jie resigned.

ironically the first person who was real nice wasnt from my shop, but it was the cleaner who came to collect rubbish. it sounds rather ridiculous, but yet, it was so true. cuz initially everyone in my shop seemed to be rather deep.

the first person i got to know was Zhi Zhong. he thought me a lot of stuffs from how to fold clothes to cashiering and how to serve customer and almost everything i know now. i dun ever know how to thank him for teaching me all those..

the first friend i ever had was Diana. but it was very much after i started working cuz at that period, she was a junior part timer and i seldom get to see her. and i knew her was only bcuz we came frm the same sch and had this teacher, MR LAI!! (which was very coincidence)

xiu zhen came in after i knew Diana. She seems nice.. but lots of bad things happen afterwards.

Then verlin joined the company (11th dec) and slowly i knew everyone.. 17 days after verlin join, felix came in as well (28th dec) ..and diana resigned one month after felix came in. and xiu zhen resigned on the 4th of jan.

Lots of gossips happened in sb14. and to me working was definately just for the sake of money cuz i hate working w HER. slowly after xiu zhen resigned i became even closer w sb14.. SHE became even better w me and everyone believed SOMEONE probably had either badmouth or backstab us.

then, my shifts started to be closer w Clare, my dearest xiao bu... and i realised that SOMEONE had really badmouth her.. for xiao bu wasnt like wad that person had told me. so ya. things are getting better and better btw me, clare, verlin and diana. we also have had links w snk which are wendi and yi ping.

as everyone took the same route back home, we always take bus tgt. and that's bus 15. then we'd smuggle up food and started talking super loudly in the bus and that was considered one of the best times i had... it was really fun talking abt how tired we were or how bad sales was etc.

and diana left us shortly. then samantha joined us 2 days later.

but still things were really fun and we had this close bonding btw us. and PWP was really a nice place to work. and about one month later, i had this convertion and i offically became a part timer on 28th feb cuz i realised it was really fun w clare around.

then there was a major shifting in SK. and all three in charge went away which were damn sad cuz we didnt even had a gathering la.

AND then bad things happened. Clare got transfered to PS on the week i convert. which is damn sad la. then we had a meal at HK cafe which clare treat us on 27th feb which was supposed to be our pay day..

then mk came in and the fun started again. then there was joan and there's wei xiang too. but i must say although the time spent wasnt long, but i truely enjoyed myself too. and i left the company on 31st march with much sadness cuz it was due to my mum constant naggings.

pics on my last day:

mk and me

ah boy and me

verlin and me

ver and me

us again

mirror effect

joan and yi ping

dearest celestine (sk) and me

yi ping and me

at simpang bedok where we had our last meal:

act cutes

ping and ver

them

ch and me

ch and me

ch and me

and that's me (:

samantha and me

dearest sb14: deep down, each and everyone will be missed by me.. all the best for future

beach going, working life

2007-03-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

Right. so i haven been blogging since a long long time. last sat (24th march) i meet out w chua and her cell mates from church. so yeah. we went to sentosa the siloso beach. it was super nice la. then i saw joanna (finally), i saw qi ying also.. met nice nice ppl.. and i miss beach going!so ya. and we took e monorail back home. we even went to VIVO city. hahahs. and i simply love starbuck's CHEESECAKE. nice~

for the past few days, i've been like working n working. cuz i'm leaving this company already. kinda begining to miss this place already. the days spent over there contains joy, happiness, tears, anger and sadness. oh wells. they jus feel like it has jus happen yesterday, for all the memories spent are still in my mind, so clearly..

~ sometimes knowing too much things can b a sin

waiting for dad to come home

2007-03-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

i sort of cant wait for my dad to come back home.. it's like he goanna take care of my course fees and etc. i always feel safe w him taking care of all my bills. hee! goanna go for my checkup tmr. damn sian la. i do hope i dun have hepertitis B la!! i heard it's genetic... hopefully i dun get it and neither do i need any needles poking into me. ^^

lao er

2007-03-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so bloody pissed off. u're not only selfish and all u know is to care abt urself. did u do anythin for the sales or even present urself in the sales floor? no, u didnt.

wad was the main thing which u did? very easy. during the last 4 hours of shop all u did was asking me and joan how much we wan to give u for closing. keep repeating that sales was bad (and did nothing abt it). going for toilets for goodness-know how many times. and lastly, hiding inside the storerm and do ur makeup. wad ~~the fuck~~ is going on in ur mind.

U should be grateful that sales was consider good despite of the poor crowd. I even had this customer that bought 6 V necks lycra, 2 spagetti tops, 2 gathering polo, 6 pcs of crew necks.. which is like a total of SG$112. which my sales shld have been damn good one la. even joan and i serve a customer who bought 2 pairs of jeans and 2 polo which cost SG$90.

HOW CAN UR SALES BE SO DAMN BAD..??

reason being simple.
* u didnt push ur sales
* neither did u serve them.

U were selfish and irresponsible and only know how to push the blame to others. it's such a wonder how u could b promoted. but things goanna end soon.. all the night mares for samantha will be gone, easily. for i can tell, it's really easy to grab the bottle of water which lies so near to her. it's jus like walking past the desert, a pool of water will surface. Hang in there and u'll get ur share of water.. a huge amount too. have faith and hang in there. hopefully u can find ur peace there whilst enjoying the water! (:

lalala. boring life, quarrel w mum

2007-03-22T08:50:00.000+08:00

I came into blogger w lots of things to blog. but suddenly seeing the whole blank area makes me ponder what i really wan to blog. Oh sighs. life's bored.

My confirmation letter frrom NYP jus came into my post ytd and my mum being forever anxious went to open the thing. AHHHHH. ~pissed. nothing much inside, just all those form and i have to go for checkups etc. and for me, i can ONLY go to bdk... the nearest one.. my sch fees are damn ex... i think if i wanna pay thru my dad's cpf it'll be cheaper.. but i've to pay back to his cpf after i graduate.. AND i'd b using the govt's tuition grant... which means the 3 yrs i dun have to pay tuition fees but when i grad.. I'd have to slog for 3 years before i'm offically independent... but it's a huge sum.. cuz initally i have to pay 13k but now only 2k.. which is a huge sum of money... I have to go for a hepatitis B test.. compulsory for all hs student.. I wonder if i have that since my dad have it........

i want to go back sch.. but i dun wan to go for the first few days.. i jus feel lonely... all alone going to sch.. my sch orientation will be on the 13th april.. the last of all school in nyp... 8.3o to 6pm.. wad time do i have to wake up for my sch man.. i have no idea.. do i wan to take 72 or shld i take the train? and i cant go w ting.. cuz hers will be on the 3rd apr to 4apr. ))))))):

Had this quarrel w my mum. I'm so pissed off la!!! but this lead to lots of things...... GOOD or BAD? aint too sure either. but i'm sure this time i'm really ~~leaving~~ not staying ..

GOODBYE

2007-03-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

Things will never be the same.. We used to be a real BIG and HAPPY family.. but i guessed everyone's going in different route, all in different directions. Clare, Verlin, Diana, Yi Ping and Me used to have so much fun..

seems like everything's gone ever since Diana left. despite us having to hang on even w/o her. things were slightly better. but after the major shifting in baleno kingdom, everyone seemed to go in different ways. I seldom even meet yiping only unless we met each other in shop otherwise we seldom even meet cuz of the kuku shifts we have got. only left me and verlin, forever being high. sadly, she's leaving too. tmr will be her last day.... as for clare, i can only meet her like once in a week?

Probably, I'm still not used to farewells and ppl leaving in my life. I jus dun like it. The feeling is like jusst so empty in me.

P/S: the first time kasper ever wants his staff
- ver and me-

off day w chua.. find clare.

2007-03-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

It's my off day and I actually spent a day out with miss chua jl, esther. Or rather she (claims) she was accompanying me la. Nevertheless, we really had a nice day out tgt...

Initally we wanted to catch a movie at PS. but there wasnt really nice movie.. some shows were like bad timing for us so we didnt went to watch. But I went to see my darling Clare (xiao bu) and I saw xiao jing too.. The-look-so-diao but actually is nice girl. yeah. AND i bought my darling peach tea. See i so good (: but seriously, i really miss her lots.. the two of them...

Then we went Swensens' just to eat their ice-cream (the topless five which is damn cool and nice) and then after that we went to THIS FASHION looking for tops which I and chua wanted. AND WE GOT IT after finding it for so long ):

i wanna compile a list of everyone where u ppl are going. mind if u tag at my tagboard pls? like with the sch u are going to and the course together with the course code (poly) TY! :D

Teritary Education

2007-03-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

Teritary Education

Junior Collegues

Polytechnics
- Temasek Poly
- Singapore Poly
- Nanyang Poly
- Ngee Ann Poly
- Republic Poly

JC

2007-03-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

JCs!

Pamela Goh- Innova
Andrew Choo- Innova
Ahmad- Innova
Chi Ben- Meridian
Zi Min- Merdian
Jasmin Chin- Merdian
Jezer Goh- Merdian
Guang Wei- Merdian

2007-03-13T09:17:00.000+08:00

I'm NOT perfect and so are YOU.

x.ihateu.x

2007-03-10T18:14:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm like meeting chua on wed. woo hoo. been a long long time since we had a very long day and guessed wad, I'm really looking forward to wed cuz I'll be able to see Min. I really haven seen her for ages la. It's goanna b a ladies nights. That's like wow wow wow and fun fun fun day! :D

Work have been fun w mk. But on the other hand, I do miss the presence of my dear lao nu ren. That's like I've spent 3 months plus w her. Probably that's how feelings and emotions come about. And why I've been wanting to find her at PS):

I need a new pair of lens! probably a coloured one this time round(:

No school ):

2007-03-07T09:26:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of Clare last night. Awwww. I miss her lots))):

anyways, the JAE posting exercise is out. And I didnt managed to get into any of my desired courses.. cuz the highest points is 14... And I'm 15. Oh man. My appeal courses are even like wierd. But it's okie..

Biomedical Infomatics Engineering (TP)
Nursing (NYP)
Marketing and Logistics (TP)

Very surprising right???!But I rather go nursing rather than going to RP. Not that I dun like the school, but I think NYP's Nursing is better and more well known and on top of that I'll get a secured job if i can graduate frm that school (^o^) so why not? (:

sick, clare's leaving..

2007-03-03T15:06:00.000+08:00

I'm on MC today): went to Tampines Polyclinic yesterday. didnt wait very long lahs. It was quite fast actually.. It's been a long time when I fell sick. The last time was when I ran in the rain w Jonathan, Jun Wei and some other friends.. A heavy thunderstorm to be more accuate la. Then I was feeling super cold in Mdm Yasmin's English lesson which I was late for one hour.. hees. (It was an extra lesson during the holidays)

It was actually Clare's last day working with me.. To think I was on MC la. I'd miss her hell lots)))))): my lao nU ren, Clare (^.^) Really love her to bits and pieces la and my all time favourate Yu Yuan Mei, dearest Verlin(:

And I wont be working on Sunday lahs. Got plans already. Thus I wont be working w my dearest 'Clara-ra" la. )))))))): But Me and Ver had plotted a plan already.. Hahas. We really love our old woman.. Cuz she's OUR old woman (:

I wanna borrow lots n lots n lots of CD frm my shop. It's kinda sad to know she's leaving so is all the in-charge from snk. But if I'm going town anytime, I'm sure to find her.

saw yp up the escator

2007-03-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

I wonder..

If I didnt go up, will u come down?

*lyn ponders*

clare being transfer; a dream of yp

2007-02-27T09:27:00.000+08:00

I woke up thinking my dream was a reality. I noticed I had a missed call from yp. Then I phoned him bck wondering whad was wrong. I couldnt really remember the details, but I knew things will get better btw the two of us.

And I woke up to see whether there was really a missed call. But to my dismay, there wasnt. So probably this was wad I wanted; and not the reality. Guessed everything will just remain as a dream. =( It's okay, for I already had my dreams dashed, hope gone. Nothing was right, nothing was wrong. Just leave everything as it is ^^

Went to shopping last night w my younger sister. It;ve been a long long time since we went shopping lahs. And my sis spent quite a lot. While we were at Century Square, we saw Justin and Bernard la! Super qiao. hahhaas.

In the day, I went out w Chin Hui!! Actually had lots of plans but in the end we went to TM to find my mother.. Then we didnt proceed w our plans. Actually I wanted to go make my nails de.. But in the end I didnt.. So I went to Guardien to find Jun Wei!! So coincidence it was his break time so we had some time taking..

HMM. Then after day I did some shopping then went home le. But I got a wierd feeling w regards to the major shifting in my shop. And it was right. Even the person I guess will transfer out really did. Cant say who it was. But yeah, I was damn strong in my prediction la. Even the location was the same as what I predicted.

But I also leaving already. So it doesnt matters who's leaving or who's coming. Since I've decided to work till 2o of march. Maybe later a bit or earlier a bit. Super sick of this work already. This stupid company.

tiring lahs.

2007-02-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

I'm freaking tired lahs.
having to work afternoon then full then morning shift continuously
very tiring one lahs.

WE NEED TO HIRE PPL
can someone pls help me lahs

then i wont have to work so much
HAHAHAHAS

final decision regarding work

2007-02-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

For the first time, I think I've finally grown up lahs. I'm made an agreement w my mum and my dad.. all because I want to work. Thus, I'd only be working till poly starts. It's kinda a hard decision to make.. but I've no choice. Or else I'd have to resign already. At least I still have one more week w Clare and Verlin tho it's hard to have the same shifts la.

I wan to go the Hong Kong Cafe w Clare and Verlin again.. On Tuesday! Our pay day again!! It's so sweet whenever we spent our nights together. Where we had hell lots of fun playing and snapping away on our phones. Oh wells, they are defintely nice people to be with la. That's why I choose to make this decision.. If i didnt even like my job in the first place, I'd have already tender. But because of them, I choose to give up my freedom and promise my parents that I wouldnt work when school reopens.

which means I only had like less than one month to 'enjoy' working)))):

I know I sounds stupid to say I love working, but wad I can say is that I've finally endured 3 months, THREE freaking long months. It's not a short period of time okay. It's like 3 months lah. So not easy to endure can. Not everyone can endure it one can (trying to make myself feel better)

Having everyone to have a different sight on u in the beginning. I can only say I took a long and tough journey to complete this three months. After a heavy thunderstorm, I finally see my rainbow, I really did.

leaving my work place...

2007-02-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

Good bye 2oo6, Welcome 2oo7

2oo6 haven been a good year for me. let's hope with the new 2oo7 piggy year, things will change for the better. somehow, things have been going fine for me. with wonderful work place, good in-charge, managers, staffs. everything have been going smoothly for me.

However, my mum wants me to quit this job.. Because of the working hours la))))): Unless I can persuade Clare to give me morning shifts for mainly everyday.. And very little closing days. Or else I'll choose to change branch or even brand.

But if i were to leave.. i'll definately miss my darling Clare, the person who never fails to bright up my day despite so many errors i've done during my working time.

I'll miss Verlin too.. the cute lil girl who had recently permed her hair to look more grown up. But still, she's pretty la tho i always disturb her. HAHA.

I miss dearest Diana too, but it wasnt too long since i last met her. I bet she's still living strong la. Having to cope her O wont b easy i dare say.. But i'm quite worried for her results. Probaably b cuz of wad Mr Lai had mentioned to me earlier on.

I'll definately miss Kasper (when he's in good mood). His jokes, his smily face and helping the shop. I just feel great and kinda relief whenever he's in a good mood, helping us to serve customers, making jokes and of cuz, treating all our staffs well. And i like his phone!!! Super pretty la. Nicely decorated. (he showed me. hahas!)

I'll miss Wani too.. tho she can b bad tempered at times, but overall, she's fine and we r still on okay terms.

I'll miss Yi Ping too, the s&k girl. She, the one whom i always had fun making funny faces opposite my shop. Having passer by to give us a wierd look cuz they didnt know r frm the same company and tt we know each other. They simply just see one of us making faces and thought it was to them. HaHa!

I'll miss Wendi and Ivy too.. the 2 s&k in-charge. (They are nice people)

I'll miss my storeroom, the place where there were fun and laughters. I'll miss my shop. I'll miss my customer, the very friendly and loooks rich tai tai.....

BUT, if i were to leave this ~~idiotic~~ company, I swear I'll never go to Parkway again. (cuz i wont have to leave this shopping mall with tears, with all those memories) I'll only keep them in my heart and captured those wonderful moments we'll b having frm this week onwards. Only then, I'll b relief that all of them are doing fine.

However, I'm kind of sure no one will miss me like how i miss them. Kinda sad right, but Clare's right. Everytime around this year, sure will have ppl leaving and ppl coming in. so i guess things are just like that. I'm sure, time will heal all this broken hearts, broken feelings though cracks and hurts will remain.

I need a man. I need people who'd hear me. I need people who'd allow me to open up. Bottling things up isnt my forte, but there's no one I can speak up my mind. There's someone whom has always been in my mind, and I'm waiting for him to initiate. But I'm still unsure abt how I feel towards him. Is he just a mere brother for me, or was he more than that. I'm not sure if it's a crush. cuz there was a period of time when we didnt talk much when I wanted to draw the line clear for i'm kind of attached. But somehow things grew to b different. He seems to b like someone who cares abt me.. I guessed this is the kind of person I'm looking for after so long...

yangpin

2007-02-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

i saw him recently.

Seeing him doesnt make things any different.
Probably time have slowly healed my broken heart.

Perhaps I've got a different angle towards this matter.
Or mayb I've got no time to think abt all this.

I sense the avoidence.
I sense the escape.
I sense the unwillingness to open up.

I dunnoe how i can help
or rather i wonder if i can help
i know there's nothing i can do.

BUT oh sigh
let's give it up
give it up everything.

goodbye to you.
goodbye to all those memories.

valentine day

2007-02-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day

it's Valentine day and i'm at my work working FULL shift. Bloody hell. kinda sway la. but who cares, i dun even have a date to go out. And my V day is spent seeing Kasper la))))):

Initally, Jun Wei wanted to come parkway to find me. but end up didnt cuz he's meeting someone le.. make me so lonely la. but it's okay, I dun mind.

To me, valentine is not just about 2 love birds getting together. Valentine never fails to let me recall the first valentine i had when i was a mere thirteen years old kid. My god bro, Ken (who is really very shuai), gave me and Fio a choc rose. I was kind touched and surprised. From that day onwards, valentine is really abt love, care between 2 people and tt doesnt have to b a couple. It can be a friend, collegue or even a family member.

I guessed after so much things have happened in the year end of 2oo6, lyn have grown quite a little. To be able to take things lightly, one must learn to give up too......

O level

2007-02-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

i got back my O results.
it wasnt really good la.

oh wells
it's a fact already.
i dun deny the marks i got
nor escape frm reality
(:

feb 2o is coming
it's coming.!
jus one more week

but somehow i dun look forward like in the past
prob i really feel ~~attached~~ to my job
having all the nice ppl there

learning how to serve customers
even those who are troublesome
having to face w the crowds
having to learn cashierring during busy day
learning how to hit sales
learning responsibility
learning.. so much so much

having a ultra good in charge who take super gd care of me
who is none other than clare
the super nice lady boss
haiz

xiao jing came to shop
she's coming bck
but i think i'm leaving my job already...
i dunoe

too much things have happen
suddenly a msg seemed to make me thnk
real hard

):
i think i need someone who's man enugh
smt i'm really tired of being the man
))):